So do you ever feel like you are supposed to be more than what you are? I'm not talking about a mid-mommy crisis where I want to drop all responsibility and seek fame and fortune. I mean as a mom, as a wife, as a person, I want to be more than what I am today. I want to create. I want to matter. I want to accomplish something that benefits others. I feel this way all the time. Honestly, it haunts me. I feel like I not only want to do something significant but I'm supposed to do something BIG. I realize that my role as a mom is huge. I'm so excited that that is how I get to spend my life but I feel like there is something else too. Who knows? (Well I know who knows... but that was just an expression.) Anyhow, all day today I have had things run through my mind that I want to accomplish in this life. I figure I better write them down. (In no particular order)
1. Get out of debt
2. Organize my house
3. Read 50 books this year
4. Read Book of Mormon again before Christmas
5. Write, Illustrate and Publish a children's book
6. Make a quilt
7. Get my Italian back to where it was on my mission
8. Run a half marathon
9. Change the world
10. Live in Hawaii (not forever)
11. Go to the Philippines
12. Go back to Italy
13. Go on an Alaskan Cruise
14. See the Great Wall
15. See the Eiffel Tower
16. Go to Africa
17. House a foreign exchange student
18. Go to the Olympics
19. Adopt a child from another country
20. Become an animal person
21. Donate my hair to Locks of Love
22. Start a garden
23. Learn to cook more creatively
24. Study nutrition
25. Learn web design
26. Study history
27. Become a church history expert
28. Go on a church history tour
29. Pray in the Sacred Grove and Gethsemane
30. Go on another mission(s) with Joe
31. Speak at EFY
32. Record a CD
33. Learn the guitar
34. Decorate my whole house with my own artwork and photography
35. Make my own dishes
36. Learn to paint
37. Paint a picture of Christ
38. Read or listen to every conference talk for the rest of my life
39. Write a church song
I'm sure there are a hundred more things that I want to accomplish. I also have a bunch of character traits I want to have but how does one truly know they have reached humility? So for simplicity's sake, and so that I can make cute little check marks next to them all, I'll leave my list as only measurable accomplishments. The end. (Or the beginning...)
I know exactly how you feel Stacy - and I really love this post. It was fun to read all of your aspirations that I have to, but also gain some insight on the things unique to you. I can see you doing them all. We should talk soon. Ti voglio bene.
ReplyDeleteThat's an AWESOME list, Stacy! You can do it!
ReplyDeleteStacy, it is always so refreshing to me to talk to you, but since I can't do that everyday, reading your blog is a nice substitute. :) You have awesome goals and they inspire me! YOU inspire me!! And, you're an AWESOME mom. Way to go!
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